... and know zip about me .... listen to the linked song ...
I am a woman with a lot of attitude and so little patience. I am stubborn and tend to think that I am always right, which is annoying for everybody since I almost always am. I am painfully aware of my strengths and weaknesses, but grew tired of using or hiding them, so I've started to mix match them in a colorful and tasteful abilities ratatouille. There is a recipe for disaster.... so what now?!
Now what?!
Now I am looking for a job in Greater Vancouver area. It is tough. It is especially tough when you try to make a career change and you want to make it in the most challenging and most desired industry in the whole world .... THE MOVIE INDUSTRY.
Oh, yes! I am trying to become a producer. A movie producer. Is it hard?! Producing is not hard. It is beautiful as is challenging, it is demanding as is fulfilling. Getting to do it is tough. But I want to do it and I will do it.
Changing careers... what am I thinking?! I am a "landed immigrant" in a new system of a far away country. I am 10.000 miles away from everything ... I am in Vancouver, on the West Coast. I have always been a West side gal and keep on being that. It's somehow easier for me. I guess it's in the blood. But still, I am in Vancouver, in Canada. I have been here for 4 months. I've met a few people, I've made some friends, ignored some individuals, annoyed some insecure men, gained some enemies .... my usual stuff. Covered the basics too: renting an apartment, looking for a job, getting a job and then, for the first time in my life, getting fired from a job.... well, laid off... or fired .... it's the same shit to me.
The system is new, is different. Different in everything - not in a bad way! - but still takes time to adjust to. Different life style, different society, different mentalities, different approach, different work environment and especially different LAW environment. Everybody here is fully aware and scared of the law. Because the law is used. and enforced. and I don't mean the authorities. here everybody is scare of everybody ... that they might sue you.
And money. Oh, money. You have to pay for everything and everything is so expensive. And there are a lot of things that are mandatory and expensive, so you've got to pay them, like rent, utilities, mobile phone, internet and medical insurance, transportation and food. Those are the basics and you need to have them but they cost a fortune. Services - untouchable. Of course there is the LUCK component as well. Your luck sticks with you like your shadow. And with my luck no wonder I got to France when the recession started, and when I got to Canada they introduced the HST - Harmonized Sales Tax. lol.
That is my luck.
And what do I do when I get here ... I panic first and then I try and change my career. The rationale behind this is if I have changed everything what's one more thing to change?!? Well, it's a lot! I knew it and now I feel it. And in my perverted way I like it.
I don't have patience by definition and now my patience is heavily tested once more. Change takes time and for the past couple of years all I did was try my patience....
Now I need to start and succeed .... and fast. And I'm planning to. So I will be busy for a while, but I will try and keep my blog updated. If for nothing else, for future references....for my Mémoirs.
à la prochaine,
Nadia
PS: I am working on my first book. It's fun and thrilling and it will make a great movie too. Need to get Daniel Craig to play the leading role and I'm still scouting for the girl. I am thinking Meryl Streep meets Annette Bening in her late 20s. any ideas?
